Well, I got myself up and got to the gym before work and got in about a mile before it was time for my trainer. We had a great session today, but, in her words, I broke her heart a little this morning!
Why? She asked what I was having for breakfast: granola. Not great, but, could be worse, right? Then she asked what I was having for lunch….. I softly whispered “lunchable”…….. and then I think she almost passed out. I think I mentioned earlier this week I was focusing on quantity, not quality this week. So just on hitting my calorie goals, and not the actual food content….
I guess that has to change. So, I did great hitting my cals this week, and I think my strategy worked, but I’ve got to find some middle ground. I wasn’t successful longterm being super restrictive and making all the “best” choices possible. I wouldn’t want to eat that healthy chicken breast night after night after night. So, I started eating bad foods and going over cals and gaining.
This week I did lose- but only 1lb. I know, I know- it’s still a pound of fat! So, I’ll take it, and I’m not complaining, but I’ve got to average a 2lb loss/week to hit my goal of 100lbs dftg.
That means I’m going to have to find a balance I can live with. As you can imagine, food become a topic of discussion the rest of the morning with my trainer. She also offered to give me food advice while I’m shopping, if I have any questions, so she’s really being nice. She mentioned other fruits, and I thought about cantaloupe. I like cantaloupe. It’s a fruit. So, cantaloupe is on the menu for next week. But she wants me to pair it with a protein, which is going to be the hard part. I actually just text her asking a question about my food plan for the week, which is racing through my little head right now.
Last week, when I shopped, I focused on cheap options. Because I’m poor, and it gets really expensive to eat properly. So, I even went to Walmart (which I loathe) to try and save money instead of going to Publix, like I always do. And they had all these rollbacks on things! For like $1. Lunchables, frozen veg, etc. But I bought chicken with breaking and fish with breading and the chocolately granola bars.
I’ve got to figure out enough options so I don’t get sick of things and get off track. Like, I was eating an apple with a little PB every morning for 2-3 weeks. Now I’m utterly over them and so this last week I went with the granola option. Only 140 cals, but I don’t even want to know how much sugar there must be in them. She wants me to pair the cantaloupe with a protein so my insulin or whatever doesn’t spike- can you imagine those chocolately granola bars and what they must have been doing to me?
So this week I’m going to put a little more effort into it and try to compromise: not complete junk, but maybe allow myself chicken or fish with breading 1-2 nights next week for dinner, but the other nights have a healthier option- skinless chicken breast, for ex. Maybe if I still have semi “bad” options, for like a treat, I can manage to eat the healthier options the rest of the time. I just can’t go hardcore immediately from where I am.
It’s going to take time to eat the way I really should be all the time. And it’s definitely going to take more energy and creativity from me that what I have been putting into food shopping. So, still a work in progress, but, I’m better than I was, right? Thinking back to 2009/2010, for instance, I lived on fast food. It’s disgusting how often I ate it, how much I ate. The enormous number of calories I was consuming on a daily basis. Not to mention all the soda I used to guzzle. It was awful. I feel so far removed from that person now, but I know it’s easy to slip back into old habits.
All I can do is keep working hard, and figure this out as I go along. You have to find what will work for you and be a lifestyle you can sustain for the rest of your life. That’s what this is all about.