Broke my trainer’s heart a little this am…

Well, I got myself up and got to the gym before work and got in about a mile before it was time for my trainer. We had a great session today, but, in her words, I broke her heart a little this morning! 

Why? She asked what I was having for breakfast: granola. Not great, but, could be worse, right? Then she asked what I was having for lunch….. I softly whispered “lunchable”…….. and then I think she almost passed out. I think I mentioned earlier this week I was focusing on quantity, not quality this week. So just on hitting my calorie goals, and not the actual food content….

I guess that has to change. So, I did great hitting my cals this week, and I think my strategy worked, but I’ve got to find some middle ground. I wasn’t successful longterm being super restrictive and making all the “best” choices possible. I wouldn’t want to eat that healthy chicken breast night after night after night. So, I started eating bad foods and going over cals and gaining. 

This week I did lose- but only 1lb. I know, I know- it’s still a pound of fat! So, I’ll take it, and I’m not complaining, but I’ve got to average a 2lb loss/week to hit my goal of 100lbs dftg. 

That means I’m going to have to find a balance I can live with. As you can imagine, food become a topic of discussion the rest of the morning with my trainer. She also offered to give me food advice while I’m shopping, if I have any questions, so she’s really being nice. She mentioned other fruits, and I thought about cantaloupe. I like cantaloupe. It’s a fruit. So, cantaloupe is on the menu for next week. But she wants me to pair it with a protein, which is going to be the hard part. I actually just text her asking a question about my food plan for the week, which is racing through my little head right now. 

Last week, when I shopped, I focused on cheap options. Because I’m poor, and it gets really expensive to eat properly. So, I even went to Walmart (which I loathe) to try and save money instead of going to Publix, like I always do. And they had all these rollbacks on things! For like $1. Lunchables, frozen veg, etc. But I bought chicken with breaking and fish with breading and the chocolately granola bars. 

I’ve got to figure out enough options so I don’t get sick of things and get off track. Like, I was eating an apple with a little PB every morning for 2-3 weeks. Now I’m utterly over them and so this last week I went with the granola option. Only 140 cals, but I don’t even want to know how much sugar there must be in them. She wants me to pair the cantaloupe with a protein so my insulin or whatever doesn’t spike- can you imagine those chocolately granola bars and what they must have been doing to me? 

*sigh*

So this week I’m going to put a little more effort into it and try to compromise: not complete junk, but maybe allow myself chicken or fish with breading 1-2 nights next week for dinner, but the other nights have a healthier option- skinless chicken breast, for ex. Maybe if I still have semi “bad” options, for like a treat, I can manage to eat the healthier options the rest of the time. I just can’t go hardcore immediately from where I am. 

It’s going to take time to eat the way I really should be all the time. And it’s definitely going to take more energy and creativity from me that what I have been putting into food shopping. So, still a work in progress, but, I’m better than I was, right? Thinking back to 2009/2010, for instance, I lived on fast food. It’s disgusting how often I ate it, how much I ate. The enormous number of calories I was consuming on a daily basis. Not to mention all the soda I used to guzzle. It was awful. I feel so far removed from that person now, but I know it’s easy to slip back into old habits. 

All I can do is keep working hard, and figure this out as I go along. You have to find what will work for you and be a lifestyle you can sustain for the rest of your life. That’s what this is all about. 

2 thoughts on “Broke my trainer’s heart a little this am…

  1. Baby steps is what I always say, and I totally agree with you on the food: that’s the hardest part for everyone! You are not alone in that regard.

    As a personal trainer myself, I often focus on letting my clients know it’s okay to slip-up here and there—we’re all human after all—and to focus more on moderation than elimination. Sometimes when you restrict too much, you end up overdoing it on the stuff you shouldn’t just to get that fix. I get that because I’ve done it too.

    That said, my method now is to focus on variety, so I don’t get sick of oatmeal and chicken (I don’t eat much meat these days, but used to quite frequently), so lean cuts of pork, beef, and fish were my proteins of choice. As far as snacks, it’s tough, but carrots, sliced cucumbers, grapes, etc., were always good for me.

    Either way, revamping your diet takes time, so don’t beat yourself up too much, and hang in there. The focus is on better health and making more good choices than bad, and it sounds like you’re doing your best on all counts. Keep it up!

    • Thanks so much! I’m definitely trying to find more of a variety of healthy foods to eat. I try to remember at least I’m making progress and I’m working to let go of the negative and focus on the positive more 😊 it’s a huge struggle but I’ve just got to keep trying and I am!!!!

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