Today I planned on getting up at 530, so I could make the gym before work. Instead, I woke up before 330a. Yesterday I was up before 430; but skipped the gym and baked a breakfast casserole and cleaned.
So this morning I decided to come downstairs, get breakfast, and put some dishes on to wash. I am all for being productive, but I’m worried I’m going to completely crash at some point.
I did weigh myself yesterday morning to see the damage I had done last week, and to my amazement I was still somehow down a lb. So I’m down 48 lbs so far.
Of course I’m trying to lose as absolutely much weight as possible before the wedding. Originally I had wanted to be down 70lbs by the wedding, but that doesn’t seem realistic now. But I’m going to see how close I can get.
Since the wedding will be here in no time (53 days!) I decided last night I needed to set a “next” goal: my after-wedding goal is to be down 100lbs by year-end. Which is totally doable. As of right now, I have 8 months to lose only 52lbs. And really, I should be losing 8-10 lbs/mo, if I really kill it. So secretly I’m trying for 120 lbs down by year-end.
If I actually hit that, I would be down to goal weight by year end! Realistic goal weight. Of course I’m going to try and see if I can lose a bit more weight, once I’m closer. My realistic goal weight, based on a prior Dr, is 150lbs. But, I’m only 5’3″, so that’s still heavy. My core body weight was around 130, per my old Dr, so 150 is realistic. But I’m not in love with that number. Of course I want to be back up my high school weight.
But, we’ll adjust once I get closer and figure out what is and is not feasible. For now, my first focus is on the wedding (and fitting my dress!!!!) and my next focus is to get down 100 lbs by the end of the year.
I also want to build back up to walking further (think 20-30k steps/day) and eventually being able to jog a 5k. I need to get down a little more first, before I can try jogging. Right now walking a few miles is still a good workout.
Of course, once I get down, I want to be able to do all the things I have not been able to for so long. I want to go on roller coasters (islands of adventure is my fave!) and I want to do stuff like parasailing and zip lining. I want to be able to fully enjoy life again!
So that’s what’s up with me.