Week 1 (18 Weeks Until Year End Challenge!) 

Officially refocused and 100% back on track! Low carb/high protein lifestyle. 

There are 18 weeks left in the year, as of today, and at a goal loss of 3lbs/wk that’s still 54 lbs I can lose by year end! 

If I hit that goal, I’ll also hit about 100 lbs down!!! Will be a huge success, HUGE! 

Next year my friend and I are going to Europe- that means a long flight, in a tiny seat. I will NOT be this weight for that flight. Im capable of hitting my goals, I just have to want it and stay focused. 

Yesterday I broke it down into 3 phases. Very attainable goals, and I can definitely hit goal weight by next November, when we leave for Europe. 

First up is getting through and making the most of the rest of this year. Started off on a good note yesterday, and hit my daily goals I set for myself: 

I’m also using my affirmations again, and have one written down each day. 

Super excited for the rest of this year now- 2016 is not a waste! I can still hit my goals and live a healthier, happier life! #MindBodySpirit 


Day 4 being back on track, and I had my mid-week check-in this morning

<Drumroll please>

I am down 8.2 lbs since Sunday!!! 

Please note this loss is due to the first week back on low carb along with suspected water weight. 

Nonetheless I am super excited with the progress I’ve made!!! When I jumped on the scale last weekend and saw 269 I was quite literally a bit shocked. It was extremely jarring. Being back down to 260.8 feels much better, and gives me a lot of motivation to keep going! 

Little upset that I overslept this morning, and did not have a chance to take my morning walk or do my morning meditation. Now it’s evening, but so far I haven’t talked myself into walking yet. 

Despite being a little discouraged about my motivation, I’m really trying to continue focusing on the positive. So far cals/carbs are better than yesterday, protein is good, and oh, yah– I lost 8.2lbs in 4 Days!!! 

Now I just have to be consistent and get back to walking, and also finally start adding my videos and weights in. Also within the next week, I believe I start adding my elliptical in too. Very short intervals at first, as it kills me and I’m super out of shape. But I’ll build up. 

Consistency is key!!!! 

Day 3 – Getting my groove back 

It’s my third day being back on track with my eating and exercise and I am feeling great! 

Today I was ever so slightly over the calorie goal I set for myself (1436 vs 1400) but I was only at 30 carbs for the day (goal was 40, as I’m working my way back down to 20) and I had 129g protein 🙂 i also not only did my planned morning walk, I threw in an evening walk too! 

So I walked over 2 miles outside today, burning over 500 cals (approx/allegedly). 

Oh! I also blew away the small step goal I set for myself, as I’m trying to work back up there as well. Goal was 4000 steps, so far I’m over 6500. 

I also did my morning meditation with affirmation and I will get my evening meditation in before bed. 

Tomorrow is my mid-week, make sure I’m on track weigh-in. Goal for this week was only to lose 1lb, as I knew I wouldn’t be 100% on point yet. I’ve already lost that in water weight, so feeling pretty good about Sunday’s official weigh in. 

All in all I’m really feeling very positive about my progress and life in general. I think my change in attitude and actively working to be kinder to myself is really, really making a huge difference. 

I can’t wait to start seeing results again! 

Day 2 Back On Track

The day is not over yet, and I did not hit every goal, but I’m considering today a success! 

Part of what I’m learning from my life coach is to focus on the positive and what I did right, and let go of beating myself up and ruminating over my flaws. 

Today I got up early and meditated, like I wanted to. I then fell back asleep, so I missed my am walk, but I learned a lesson that I need to get up and walk first, and then meditate, once I’m more awake!

Today I am so far under my calorie goal, and I’m working hard to not eat anything else this evening. 

Today I did take my evening walk with the puppy, as planned. 

Today was a good day. 

Carbs are not on point yet, but much lower than yesterday. Protein was good, though! 

Water is something I knew I needed to work on, so that’s why I decided to include it on my daily goals. I only had 32oz of water today, but, I can have at least 8oz more tonight. But, I am working on it, tracking it, and I will do better. 

This was also my first day back to work after my staycation last week. Given that, I’m even happier with the good choices and progress I made today. 

I’m feeling good about my mindset, which is the biggest struggle in my opinion. 

I also am super pumped that I’m adjusting my focus and my thoughts. I’m actively working on replacing all the negative self talk with learning to be kinder to myself. I’m on a journey of learning to love myself- mind, body, and spirit. 

This is so new to me, but I think it’s going to make all the difference. I think loving myself has been the missing link all this time. Taking care of your health and body are acts of self-love. 

I was so self-loathing, it’s no wonder I couldn’t sustain change. I was working on one aspect, while ignoring the giant mountain in my way. 

I’m a little nervous about my journey, but I’m really excited to see how far I can go. 

Day 1- it got real

Stayed up until 3a last night writing down my daily goals for the next few weeks. 

Getting progressively harder day by day, building up a little more each day. 

Plan is very realistic– first week, goal is to lose 1 lb. I am reducing carbs daily, until I get back down to 20. Reducing cals slowly, until I get back down to 1200. I’m slowly increasing activity and doing a video and walk daily. 

A new facet of my plan is meditation, both in the morning and evening. My life coach gave me customized affirmations, 2 pages of them, and I have picked one per day to focus on. I’m starting slow, meditating for 2 min in the am and pm, and focusing on that day’s affirmation. I will increase to meditation for 10-15 min. 

I’m really refocusing whole heartedly, mind and body. 

I also started adding positive sayings to start each day– fitness motivation, inspiration, etc. Missed the first couple days, but I’m really trying to start each day off on the right foot and continue to be positive and mindful throughout the day. 

This is not going to be easy. I really struggle with food and consistency. But, I absolutely have to do this. I’m determined to stay focused and consistent and I know I’ll see results. 

I’m trying to be very realistic in my goals, and accept that it’s going to take time. I’m not going to lose massive amounts of weight overnight. I’m going to lose slowly, but that’s ok. I need to lose and keep the weight off, instead of this dramatic yo-yo. 

Weighed this morning, for a baseline of Day 1 being back on track: 269.0. 

By next Sunday, my goal is to have lost 1 lb. More importantly, my goals are to hit every daily goal, and get back to being consistent. Log my food, workout, and keep moving! 

Oh– I also listed a place to mark a success every single day– what is something I did right that day? Really trying to change my way of thinking, and learn to be kind to myself. Wish me luck!!! 


Met *every* goal today, for the first time EVER!!! 

Met all 3 Apple Watch goals:

Active cals burned: 615 (smart goal: 340)

Exercise minutes: 33 (goal 30)

Stand goal: 15hrs (goal 1 min/hr for 12 hrs)

Total steps: 10,374

Cals consumed: 807 (burned approx 600)

Walked 2.5-3miles outside, for 71 min broken between 3 walks 

Carbs: 26 (goal </= 30) 

Protein: 78 (goal 70-90) 

Water: 80oz (goal 70oz)

So I completely killed it today and I feel incredibly motivated!!!! Cannot wait to continue this momentum!!! 

I think writing down very attainable goals and then recapping my day on paper is really helping me. 

Blue are my personal goals I set for the day. Much laxer than my watch, etc, but I was trying to build my way back up to exercise and work my way back down calorie wise. But, again, I killed it!!! 

The pink is my actual stats for the day. I am loving having this at a glance, and using paper and pen again. I think I may have found what works for me. 

Now I have to just remain consistent and keep up the momentum. I’m determined to do this. 


Take 2… Or 3? Or…. 

Last week I started writing down weight, and I set a weigh day goal (which I met) but I didn’t plan enough. 

Was reading tonight to set small goals, and journal. I’m utilizing my day planner as my “journal”. 

This time I’m setting daily step goals, calorie goals, carb goals, etc. Going to work my way back down to where I need to be– build up my step goals, while decreasing my calorie and carb goals. 

I’ll still keep track of weight, too. But I think this is a good way to keep me on track and motivated. I’m being very reasonable. For instance, my one and only goal tomorrow is to hit 3500 steps. 

I know. That’s nothing. But, I’ve been hit or miss (mostly miss) exercising. Tonight I did a couple miles, but I am not consistently doing that. 

So, tomorrow will be my first day keeping track, and I know I have carb-filled leftovers, and my cals have been out of control, so I’m only focusing on a realistic step goal. I have to actually walk to hit that– I work from home and sit at a desk all day. 

The next day I kept the 3500 step goal, added to reduce carbs (no starch carbs) quit sweet tea (for the millionth time– my arch nemesis) and stay under 1400 cals. 

My goal is to get back up to consistently hitting 10k steps a day, while being under 20 carbs, with 1000-1200 cals intake and at least 90g protein and 72oz water. 

Which, trying to do all of that immediately would be totally overwhelming. I think I’m being practical this way, and hopefully it will help me get and stay back on track. 

Moment by moment 

Losing weight and making the right choices are a moment by moment struggle for me some days. 

I’m +60 lbs down, with 120lbs to go. I was (am) morbidly obese. I got into this situation because of my issues with food. 

I’ve never been a normal weight my entire life. In 3rd grade a classmate made up a song about how fat I was, which I still remember to this day. Actually, it was how ugly AND fat I was. 

In high school, I lost weight and was the closest I’ve ever been to a “normal” BMI. But, for high school, that was still super fat. I’ve always been the fat girl. 

The lowest I ever got was 135lbs (I am only 5’3″) and that was in high school. Size 10– still double digits and very “HS fat”. It also didn’t last long. I couldn’t maintain. 

I’ve never been able to maintain by being healthy. From about 12-21/22 I was bulimic. It took me a long time to be able to say that. That was how I got to 135 lbs. that’s how I mostly stayed around 150-160lbs. I’ve never known how to just eat like you’re supposed. I’ve always binged, purged. After I quit purging (lots of therapy), I never learned how to quit binging. 

I’ve had two weight loss surgeries and feel like a complete failure. The lapband gave me nothing but issues, so I revised to sleeve. I’m down less than 70lbs in a year. That is not considered successful. 

I’m going to my one year follow up with the surgeon on February 16th (one year, to the day) and today I almost threw up I was so stressed about going to see him. 

I don’t know what’s wrong with me that I cannot consistently follow an appropriate eating plan. To be honest, I wish sometimes I could be bulimic again. Or anorexic. Tried that for awhile, but then I finally was successful at making myself purge and food is way better than no food. Although I still used to go days without eating. Now I try to do liquids to reset, and I can’t last a day. 

It’s disgusting and pathetic. I’m disgusting and pathetic. 

If I eat on track, and exercise, I lose weight. It’s not hard!!! Yet, it feels like the absolute hardest thing in the world for me!!!! 

I don’t know how to overcome this. I’m literally at a loss. I do not want to be this fat, obese person the rest of my life. I’m tired of struggling and I’m tired of fighting every single day. 

Paper and pen 

Been struggling to get and STAY under 250. Currently I’m back up to 254. So, tryig something new– or, old? Going back to basics!!!

I’ve started tracking weight, cals, exercise on my planner, like in olden days. I think weighing daily and recording it, manually recording my cals and macros and exercise and being able to see it in one place, in one shot will help. 

I’m also going back to basics in my diet. Started today on clear liquids, and will progress back to (healthy) solids over the next 10 days. 

I have already committed to taking the puppy walking this Sunday (about a 3-mile hike) and I’m trying to get my focus back. 

I’m not quitting, and I will be successful in losing the rest of this weight! I’ve come too far to quit now! 

3.5lbs down this week

Stats recap time! 

Starting/high weight: 316lbs January 2015

Current weight: 249 lbs January 2016

Goal weight: 130-150lbs by December 2016

67 lbs down total, 119 yet to go. 

After being off track the second half of last year (after the wedding) I’m happy to have survived the holidays, lost the holiday weight gain, and be back on track! 

This week I have lost 3.5 lbs and last week I lost 3.8 lbs. I’m on track to hit my goal of 10lbs/mo, as I’m trying to lose the remaining 119lbs by year-end. Time to be done. 

Feeling pretty good about my progress this week. I wasn’t “perfect” but I still lost. I ate carbs (from veg, not starches) and still lost. 

I’m also learning it doesn’t have to be all or nothing- either “perfect” or a disaster. I don’t have to be under 20 carbs each day, I can stay under 50 with eating veg and be ok. 

This is a challenging process and not easy by any stretch of the imagination. Hopefully I’ll continue to learn and stay on track and make progress.