Take 2… Or 3? Or…. 

Last week I started writing down weight, and I set a weigh day goal (which I met) but I didn’t plan enough. 

Was reading tonight to set small goals, and journal. I’m utilizing my day planner as my “journal”. 

This time I’m setting daily step goals, calorie goals, carb goals, etc. Going to work my way back down to where I need to be– build up my step goals, while decreasing my calorie and carb goals. 

I’ll still keep track of weight, too. But I think this is a good way to keep me on track and motivated. I’m being very reasonable. For instance, my one and only goal tomorrow is to hit 3500 steps. 

I know. That’s nothing. But, I’ve been hit or miss (mostly miss) exercising. Tonight I did a couple miles, but I am not consistently doing that. 

So, tomorrow will be my first day keeping track, and I know I have carb-filled leftovers, and my cals have been out of control, so I’m only focusing on a realistic step goal. I have to actually walk to hit that– I work from home and sit at a desk all day. 

The next day I kept the 3500 step goal, added to reduce carbs (no starch carbs) quit sweet tea (for the millionth time– my arch nemesis) and stay under 1400 cals. 

My goal is to get back up to consistently hitting 10k steps a day, while being under 20 carbs, with 1000-1200 cals intake and at least 90g protein and 72oz water. 

Which, trying to do all of that immediately would be totally overwhelming. I think I’m being practical this way, and hopefully it will help me get and stay back on track. 

Back again! 

Fell off track from thanksgiving to Christmas, but today is a new day and I’m back on track– again. It may take me a little longer, but I’ll never give up. 

I won’t be 100% perfect immediately, but I’m trying to quit sweet tea again, coffee drinks, and do my low carb-high protein lifestyle. 

Attacking it with a few protein shakes a day to get started.

I’m mad at myself for getting off track again, but this is the hardest struggle of my life. It’s definitely not easy, but one day it will be worth it. 

Lovers Key

Sunday Funday alert! Today the hubs, the bubs (puppy), and I went to Lovers Key state park and walked the black island trail, which is about 2.75 miles long. 

  
We certainly didn’t set any records, but we had to stop along the way for puppy breaks and of course photo ops! 

The last 2 Sunday’s we’ve gonna to the Naples Botanical Gardens, but this weekend I thought It would be nice to do something different. 

I love that I’m becoming more active again! I *want* to be active and get up and get moving, instead of spending a lazy Sunday on the couch, accomplishing nothing. 

Such a change in thinking, and I’m absolutely loving it! 

So far today I’ve hit 2 of my activity goals thru my Apple Watch so I’m pretty excited about that. 

We’re also going to try and get in another walk around the neighborhood this evening, which my goal is to start walking 3 times a day (before work, on lunch, and in the evening before bed). 

This, plus continuing to work on my elliptical should really help the weight loss. My struggle will be limiting my eating like I should be. I haven’t eaten off plan, but I have eaten too much. I def struggle with getting munchy in the evenings. 

But, I refuse to give up and I’m going to keep fighting the good fight! 

Progress, not Perfection

Progress not perfection is my biggest takeaway from my journey right now. 

Hard not to compare yourself to others, but ultimately getting down on yourself or discouraged is counterproductive and we’re all different. 

My struggles may not be your struggles. I certainly have struggles, as we all do. 

But beating myself up about my lost 3-4 mos isn’t going to do any good and it certainly won’t change anything. 

  
All I can do is my best, going forward. 

Make the best decisions that I can, work my hardest, and continue to persevere. 

No one said this would be easy, but I’ve no doubt it will be worth it!!!! Stay strong, my friends! 

2lbs down this week

Friday is my official weigh day, though I’ve been psychotic ally weighing myself this week, looking for a change. Only 2 lbs down… But, that’s still 2 lbs I’m rid of, right?! 
  
2lbs is still progress, and that’s what this journey is all about! 

I joined some Fb support groups, and seeing people lose like 20lbs/mo, just crazy amounts of weight made me a little disappointed for a bit, but, my Dr said I can expect to lose 8-10lbs/mo, if I really work hard. So, I’m on schedule for that. 

I may not be the fastest loser out there, but I’m still losing!!! 

128lbs to go to new goal (130). My realistic goal was 150, which would still be overweight as I’m only 5’3″. I really want to be out of that category, and if I’m going to try, I might as well aim big!!! 

HW: 316

CW: 258

Next (quickly approaching!) goal: under 250!!! 

Of course getting under 200 is a BIG goal… I’m coming for ya, ONEderland! I miss my fave roller coasters, and going to stadiums, etc!!!!

Killed my macros! 

  
This is my end-view from yesterday of my macros– I don’t think I’ve ever done this well!!! 

Got 144g of protein for the day, which surpassed my goal of 90g/day. 

My fat and carb percentages all look pretty good as well, so I was super happy and proud of myself. I literally think this may be the best I’ve done since my surgery. 

Today is Day 3 back on my diet, and I’m already at 50g protein after breakfast and mid-am snack and I’ve only had 4g carbs. So killing it, yet again!!!

We recently moved and there is no gym near us now, but I ordered an elliptical. It is actually supposed to arrive at the local warehouse today, so they should then call me within 48 hrs to schedule delivery/assembly. 

I’ve only got 3 months until I’m at my one-year post surgery, which is my golden window to lose weight. So I’m really going to try to lose as much as possible the next 3 months. That means no carbs for holiday meals and absolutely adhering to my diet. 

My goal is to lose 40 lbs by February. That will put me at 100lbs down in the first year. 

I really could have/should have lost more, but I can’t change what’s been done, I can only move forward. Which I’m 110% committed to doing. 

Obsessed

Day 2 of renewed focus: color me obsessed 

I’m actually freaking out a little, as I was feeling so good about getting back on track yesterday (and killing it!) that I joined a few sleeve support groups on Fb. 

Then I got super depressed and felt like a failure, after seeing people losing 70-100 lbs in only 6 mos! I am WAY behind!!! 

I’ve completely wasted the last 3-4 months and now I’m super stressed. 

I emailed the nutritionist what I’m doing and asked what other changes I can make to maximize my weight loss going forward. 

So, I’m completely obsessing now over my weight, which I think is good. I’m focused and will stay dedicated and on track, as long as I keep obsessing about losing the weight and getting fit and healthy. 

The liquid diet didn’t last long, but I am still only eating 2-3 actual meals a day, and using protein drinks the rest of the time. 

I even found low sugar/carb ketchup, which I also used last night to make a low carb/sugar cocktail sauce. So, I’m really trying to give 110% on this. 

My elliptical should be installed soon, I hope. Waiting for the call, which should be in the next couple days. 

I have to stay obsessed and focused and really kill it… 

Take 2

With the wedding and honeymoon (June/July) I got off track and never made it fully back on board 100%. 

So this morning I have started a two-week liquid diet again. Protein powder, powdered flavored protein water, and crystal light are it. If I get desperate, I’ll allow broth and sugar free jello, just like the 2-week liquid diet I did prior to surgery in February. 

After I finish my drink, I’ll already be at 50g protein before lunch! Super proud of myself. 

I absolutely have to kick the carbs and sugars again, and I’d also like to jump start the weight loss, so that’s why I opted to redo the 2-wk liquid diet. It’s time to get serious again and really kill it. 

They say you have a solid 12-mos post-surgery, to really lose and I have not been making the most of it. That changes today. I have only 3 more months, and I am aiming to lose at least 30 more lbs. honestly I’d like to lose more, but I have to still be realistic in my goals. 

I want to be under 200, which would be about 50-60lbs down. But, realistically I can expect 8-10lbs/mo… If I can lose 30lbs by February, at least I’ll almost be at 100lbs down. That would be a good mark. I should have lost like 150, but, I can’t undo what has been done, I can only move forward. 

I intend on making the absolute most of the next 3 months, and then I’ll keep going, it will just be harder… 

5 months and 10 days…

Finally went to the gym today for the first time in forever. As usual, my mind clears on the treadmill. While walking today I had a realization: 

In 5 months and 10 days it will be my 33rd birthday. 

Not a traditional milestone, but 33 happens to be my favorite number. And I realized that, for the first time, I could actually be down 100lbs by my birthday. 

The scale has not moved since I returned from my honeymoon. I’ve also not been 100% back on track nor have I been working out (until today). It’s been firmly stuck at 260lbs. 

Well, I’m down 56 lbs and I only have to lose 44 lbs in the next 5 months and I’ll be 100lbs down. That’s totally doable. 

So, that is my new goal. I have to kill it and make the most of my surgery and get down 100 lbs this year. 

For the first time In my life, I’m going to be ready for my big birthday and look smashing! 

Post-Wedding Update

  
Well, I didn’t lose 100 lbs down by the wedding (which was June 20, 2015), but I was down nearly 60 lbs. 

My dress did fit– as you can see– thanks to the corset back we substituted in. 

I may not have hit my original goal by the wedding, but I’m pretty happy I lost as much as I did. Every lb helped, and I truly felt like Cinderella. 

I’m definitely not stopping my weight loss journey, just because the wedding has come and gone, either! 

New goal: hitting 100 lbs down by the end of 2015. Then I’ll still need to lose about 50lbs in 2016, after which I would be at goal. 

So– I’m back from the honeymoon, and that means back on track! I didn’t eat awful on the honeymoon, but I did have some drinks, carbs, and a little ice cream. 

Since I started my new job in April, I haven’t been able to eat every 3 hours, like I’m supposed to. I also wasn’t eating as well as I should have been. 

I’m happy to report I found a newer “new job”, which I’ll start July 8th. I’ll be working from home (after a week or so of training), and not only will I be able to get back to my healthy eating patterns, it will be much easier to eat the proper things as well. 

I’m very excited to get back on my diet and hit that 100lb down mark by the end of the year!